I’m looking around at all of this blank space,
I close my eyes,
Feeling this emptiness that is slowly invading my soul,
And pulling my life from me,
As I watch from the sidelines,
I open my eyes and to no surprise,
Gasping for air and only inhaling water,
I’m turning the pages of this wordless book,
Page after page,
Blank space after blank space,
Trying to find the end, but what, end?
What will be the end to this strung out story?
My love is my disease and this disease is spreading,
Taking control of my bloodstream, shriveling my cells,
The only cure I know,
But you’re too far away,
Like an astronomer, wishing that they could travel above and join the stars & the moon,
But there’s no travel out there for me,
No train I can catch nor a plane I can fly on,
I’m left sitting here, in the vast darkness that is my heart.
I really don’t have much to say today, but I know that I need to write something. Anything.
I wish things were different.
I feel like I’ve been able to be stay strong lately but today, not so much.
I feel like I’ve been able to keep my mind right lately but today, not so much.
I’m looking forward to attending Open Mic tonight, with the hopes of being able to get out of my own mind for a few hours.
Until next time…
-Master and Commander, FjB
I would like to start something weekly or every other week where I share with you guys any new music, bands or solo artists that I have recently been introduced to and also share any experiences I’ve had attending concerts, or festivals. Basically I’d like to dedicate one entire blog a week to MUSIC! Talking about favorite songs, my interpretations and meanings, upcoming events and moooore! Music is such a huge part of my life and it only makes sense to share my tastes with the world because I absolutely love when people show me new music.
I think sometimes it’s good to write a letter to the person you wish you could speak to, and say all of the things you wish you could say – even if they may not ever actually read it themselves. So here goes: