As I was looking through my notebook of poems, I came across a poem I wrote about a year ago from now. It’s odd that I did not date this poem because typically I date everything. My life is completely different from where I was in April of last year, but I would still like to share it. Although this poem is about Paul, who is no longer in my life, I think that sharing these old feelings will help in my healing process from this heartbreak. Enjoy.
I see you.
Sometimes we unexpectedly meet someone and out entire life changes,
The moment you exchange words,
It becomes the only interaction you want to engage in.
February 25th, 2017,
My entire life changed.
I met the most beautiful soul I had ever seen,
I fell in love, hard and without complaint.
March 21st, 2017,
A day I was beyond petrified for,
Feeling so alone and terrified of the unknown with my health,
But you were there for me, I couldn’t have asked for anything more,
After my MRI,
You surprised me with a cup of ambition and you made me feel like I could fly,
I felt I could prepare for any outcome of the test with you by my side,
That day, I knew I loved you,
And I want you to know that I see you,
I love you and all of your broken pieces,
True love can overcome any demons, believe me when I say this,
When you look in the mirror and see all that you wish away,
Know that I see you and I know you’ll be okay,
My love for you knows no bounds,
And every day that passes it becomes more profound,
Like a sailor’s love for the sea,
Like a hiker’s love for an elegant tree,
You will rise and you will fall,
And I will there by your side through it all,
I will love you in the darkness during the times you cannot love yourself,
To support you, watch you pick back up and overcome,
All that you have ever withheld,
I want you to know that I see you,
And what I say I know is our truth,
There’s a reason for us, this, and this stonewall of struggles,
We will break it down together, side by side and arise through the rubble.
Until next time…
–Master and Commander, FjB